Haven't slept since I found that video on my camera. Know I have to sleep sometime, but I just haven't been able too. I mean... technically, nothings changed. Whatever happened on that video happened a month ago and I just wasn't aware of it. Of course, now that I know, I'm thinking about it constantly and that's making things worse.
Tried to get it out of my head by watching CNN all day. Of course, doesn't help to keep hearing "Cairo" over and over, which brings my thoughts right back to the situation. Dr. Cairo... how and why did I come up with that? I don't remember anymore. I confess that I'm scared... wouldn't be human if I wasn't. But I've been trying to think logically in spite of that fear.
I still have time. People usually have at least a few months from the time he shows up to the time he gets them. Mind you, crazy shit happens during those months, but you're still alive. People have been suggesting I run... I've even suggested it to people in the past. But recently, I've realized something. That crazy shit will happen where ever you are... whether you're hanging around your house attending college or living the runners life on a rooftop. Crazy shit happens. And I'd rather deal with that shit from a familiar place with a support system than a city where you can get killed in a mugging just as easily as he can get you.
Proxies... screw em. Right now, I'm concerned with one thing, vigilance for when He shows up. MyDarkJournal, See0ker0x, fearfulXbenefactor... if any of them shows up in person, then I'll give a damn. And they'll meet mister un-specified weapon purchased this afternoon. But for now, they're just trolls to me.
Looking back on the last few days, I got way too cocky. I'm back in reality again. As for the video itself, you know as much as I do. I can't see Him anywhere in there, but the picture is just so messed up from distortions.
One of you mentioned the way that the Compilation videos I uploaded that day got screwed up in rendering. Hadn't thought of it, but I suppose it's possible. There's a few other things that happened while I was home that I hadn't considered as well... we had the family Christmas party at my uncle's a week before Christmas, and the circuit breakers kept blowing. I also fell asleep for an hour or so while the realitives were drinking, though I really think I was just tired. My cell phone charger also went inexplicably missing while I was home so I had to go buy a new one, but it's probably just behind some furniture somewhere... I doubt slender man goes around stealing people's cell phone chargers...
That was my pathetic attempt at being funny. I'm useless on some days.